Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Tears

This morning I did not want to run. My kids had late start and I was able to sleep in. That was nice, but it made me want to stay cuddled up and not go out into the big bad world of cold. It makes my nose run. But, knowing that I never want to see the 180's again and that my body is craving being in the fat burning zone and that I need to burn some massive calories, I got up and put my running clothes on. That was at 7:30. At 8:45 I was still here. I woke the girls up and didn't get going until 9:10. But, I was outside with a kleenex in each hand for my runny nose and eyes. For some reason, the cold just does that to me. One of the things I was doing this morning was rechecking my distances on this site. It seemed as if I was running farther than a mile.
ALLY I NEED YOU TO BRING YOUR SATELLITE WATCH OVER SO I CAN GET EXACT READINGS!
Anyway, I decided to kick it up a notch for my first mile to see if I could run at a faster pace. Again, I don't know if my mile is exactly accurate, but I ran it in 11:45. I don't think I have ever been under 12 minutes. I only had time to run 3 miles total, but my other 2 miles I walked and ran and they were both about 13 1/2 minutes. Not bad, and my face was still beet red, which is always a good indication that I am working hard.
As I mentioned before, I know that my body has been really wanting to be in the fat burning zone after so long out of it. Here is where the tears come in. As I stood on the scale this morning, instead of a scream coming out of my mouth, tears sprang to my eyes and a slight cry came out of my mouth. I am emotional as I am typing. My weight today is:


177.7

Despite this lenthy post, I feel pretty speechless. How is this possible that I can continue to drop weight? How did it take me so long to find a program that would work for me? How did I let my life get so out of control? How did I do this to my body? How could I ignore my health for so long? These questions are what get me out the door.
WAYLAND-I NEED A WORKOUT TOMORROW FOR ARMS AND ABS. I KEEP DOING THE SAME THING (CURLS, CHEST PRESS, OVERHEAD PRESS, TRICEPS, CRUNCHES) AND I WANT TO SWITCH IT UP A LITTLE. CAN YOU EMAIL ME?
I continue to look forward to your encouraging words. I appreciate you so much!

2 comments:

Miller Family said...

Yeah! You're body is liking that fat burning zone! Can't wait to run with you (when will that be?) I'll try to call ya today. Love you, J

Ally said...

sorry we are just reading this today. Maybe I can come run with you with my Garmin next week sometime. Wayland will e-mail you some workouts or if I come out next week I will show you some others. I am so proud of your hard work. Keep it up. I miss you and I love you!!! Lets get together soon! Ally